"You have a way about you, it's different. Can't explain it." Those breathless little noises were cute, he couldn't describe it any other way. He watched his birds feed and made sure they were doing fine before he got back into the car, waiting for Edward to get in the other side before he backed up the car, heading back onto the dirt road.
With a small smile on his face, he hit the accelerator and took them back towards Edward's home, knowing roughly where to go from here. "So what if I did get turned on by it? Who cares?"
"Ohh, Jonny, you are one of those men my momma warned me about, out to seduce me." Even as he spoke, Edward stretched out on the chair, leaning back now that the crow adventure was over. He was surprised, he hadn't really expected... Honestly, he wasn't sure what he should have expected at all. Not the birds, for one thing. More alarm about the gay thing?
Certainly what he had come to expect here. "I guess in school they all already figure you get turned on by handsome boys, huh?" He had taken note of that. "Wonder if they know they're right about something for once."
"I don't get turned on by handsome boys. Just like when people are scared. People. Anyone. Don't read into it." Jonathan didn't think about it as a gay thing, to him it was just something that he knew. He liked when people were scared - of him, of the world, of anything - he just liked when people panicked, whimpered and sobbed. It was why he liked horror so much. "I'm not gay."
He didn't know if he was or he wasn't but he knew he didn't want to be. Nevermind how his family would react but to be bullied for being suspected to be gay was one thing. To actually be gay would get him murdered.
"I ain't gay and you better quit that talking, Edward. People round here, they don't like this sort of talk. You start thinking too much, start saying shit you don't know and soon I end up beaten half to death. It ain't fun, I don't fancy it again so you watch your mouth." His words had an edge to them, serious and dangerous, he clearly wasn't messing around.
"Right, right. Of course not." That was kind of funny, in a way. Under the thumb of this fucked up place enough to worry about the homophobia, but freely talking about how fear turned him on. Maybe he'd have fit right in at Gotham too. Edward laughed, even if it was maybe more upsetting than funny. These things were starting to bleed into each other. "You better let me out at the corner of the street, by the way, Jon-boy. Speaking of people talking."
He didn't want to see his mother's reaction to a boy dropping him off on his first day, definitely didn't want to imagine the sheriff's choice words to that either. Not as if he couldn't bear it, but he could try and give Izzy a day when she wasn't surrounded by abuse being hurled around. Not her fault her brother was a useless faggot. "Hey, Jonny. If I get scared of being near you... Will you let me then?"
Edward watched his face, fascinated by him more than afraid. So much going on inside him, he could tell.
"... Dunno." It was strangely sweet, in a weird way, a way that made Jonathan's stomach drop in a strange way. He didn't like it but he liked it at the same time, it was weird and he hated it. He turned left onto the road and it was definitely clear where they were now. Not long until Edward's place - definitely wanted to be careful people didn't talk, very typical of his sort. He was likely not gay and just playing around, wanting to get a rise, wanting to walk those lines but not wanting to actually be seen or known as being near a faggot. Seemed about typical.
He wanted more from Edward but the cynic in him wasn't willing to believe. "Like I said, you want to avoid talk, you stay away from me. It's the smartest thing to do."
Pulling the car to a stop on the street, Jonathan pulled on the hand break. "I assume you can walk from here?"
"Guess so. If I freckle up more, it's on you." Edward didn't fancy even a short walk, because it was entirely too sunny and hot outside, but he couldn't exactly blame Jonathan for the weather. Couldn't really blame him for anything. Honestly, he was grateful for him more than anything, sitting there with his awkward expression and the guarded attitude of someone who was only expecting to be hurt. So much to this one. Gave him someone to focus on who wasn't miles away back in Gotham City, after having betrayed him and broken his heart.
Definite improvement, on the whole. "I'm not gonna avoid talk, am I? You see me fitting in here, Jonny? Doesn't matter if I stay away or give you a lap dance during history class."
"If you do that, I'll make my crows eat you alive." Rolling his eyes, Jonathan popped the doors open and leaned back, exhaling the fresh air from the window and enjoying the sunshine. Poor city boy, he was gonna be so grateful when winter kicked in. No idea why but clearly that was the climate Edward was used to. "Best get yourself home before you set alight in the sun, don't want to burn."
He didn't answer his questions because he knew the answer, he just didn't want to encourage Edward to get close. He didn't want to let Edward in or get pulled into his charm - he just wanted to survive high school alone. "And stay outta the grass or you'll be bothering them snakes and all. Stay on the road."
"Onto the road I go! May the Lord have mercy on me." Edward made a cross gesture that perhaps betrayed that he hadn't spent much time in his life praying, and that he then just walked down the middle of the road with his arms spread out as if he was being crucified probably didn't make him come across as much less blasphemous. "Burn me up, Jesus!"
At least he hadn't lose his sense of the dramatic.
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With a small smile on his face, he hit the accelerator and took them back towards Edward's home, knowing roughly where to go from here. "So what if I did get turned on by it? Who cares?"
So no, definitely not denying it.
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Certainly what he had come to expect here. "I guess in school they all already figure you get turned on by handsome boys, huh?" He had taken note of that. "Wonder if they know they're right about something for once."
Now he was just poking. Waiting for the reaction.
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He didn't know if he was or he wasn't but he knew he didn't want to be. Nevermind how his family would react but to be bullied for being suspected to be gay was one thing. To actually be gay would get him murdered.
"I ain't gay and you better quit that talking, Edward. People round here, they don't like this sort of talk. You start thinking too much, start saying shit you don't know and soon I end up beaten half to death. It ain't fun, I don't fancy it again so you watch your mouth." His words had an edge to them, serious and dangerous, he clearly wasn't messing around.
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He didn't want to see his mother's reaction to a boy dropping him off on his first day, definitely didn't want to imagine the sheriff's choice words to that either. Not as if he couldn't bear it, but he could try and give Izzy a day when she wasn't surrounded by abuse being hurled around. Not her fault her brother was a useless faggot. "Hey, Jonny. If I get scared of being near you... Will you let me then?"
Edward watched his face, fascinated by him more than afraid. So much going on inside him, he could tell.
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He wanted more from Edward but the cynic in him wasn't willing to believe. "Like I said, you want to avoid talk, you stay away from me. It's the smartest thing to do."
Pulling the car to a stop on the street, Jonathan pulled on the hand break. "I assume you can walk from here?"
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Definite improvement, on the whole. "I'm not gonna avoid talk, am I? You see me fitting in here, Jonny? Doesn't matter if I stay away or give you a lap dance during history class."
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He didn't answer his questions because he knew the answer, he just didn't want to encourage Edward to get close. He didn't want to let Edward in or get pulled into his charm - he just wanted to survive high school alone. "And stay outta the grass or you'll be bothering them snakes and all. Stay on the road."
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At least he hadn't lose his sense of the dramatic.