growing pains

[3rs]

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[jonboy]

"A class panic attack has no anger. There is anger afterwards and there's such a thing as anger attacks but they are different. Anger with panic and disassociation... I would think epilepsy or Tourette syndrome, honestly." Though that didn't seem 100% correct, his mind went in that direction. Uncontrollable rage attacks tended to be linked with these sort of areas. "The other alternative, the more unpleasant one, would be schizophrenia. People with psychotic attacks can get strong, angry, paranoid."

Jon got up and went over to his books, looking for the one he wanted. "If it is, it tends to be onset around 18. Though I'm not sure if he has all the symptoms for schizophrenia. I need more data, of course."

[3rs]

"Yeah, well. I think it's kind of dreamy. I can't decide whether I want him to slap me around or wrap me up in his team jacket." Edward sighed, exaggeratedly, grinning a little. Hey, at least he was taking this further than just the normal and expected cliché. Setting off several alarm bells, but at least he wasn't boring. That would be a fate even worse than a crush on the blond jock who may or may not have a dangerous psychosis. "Anyway, I think he's gay for me. Just a tad."

But then, he thought that about a lot of people.

[jonboy]

"You think that about a lot of people. I started working on statistics for it. You're wrong so far 48/7% of the time. So you're close so 50/50, son." Didn't scream successful but he supposed he was over a significance threshold. Not enough to be scientifically sound, however. Jonathan found the book he wanted and came back over to sit, opening it at the back to look at the index.

"Disassociation is very rare. Most think it's not real. You only really see it with trauma. Generally abuse or war related trauma. There's a small number of disorders that cover disassociation." He flipped to the page they needed and opened it up. "Four potentials. Disassociation-amnesia, unspecified disassociation, depersonalisation-derealisation and DID. Dissociative identity disorder."

Jon sighed wistfully. "If only."

[3rs]

"I don't know what you'd call it, but I know he was watching me do something he'd never tolerate and he still doesn't remember seeing it." So, whatever it was, clearly Harvey had no awareness. "Anyway, I think your statistics are skewed. You've no idea how repressed idiots express their hidden gay desires. All you know is what repressed reasonably intelligent boys do."

Edward stuck his tongue out to him, then finally lowered the bag of peas from his eye again. "How is it looking?" Fingers crossed. Although it felt swollen when he gently touched it and it was painful to keep it open, so he assumed it was bruising nicely. Damn.

[jonboy]

"Not sw-swollen." Jon nodded in approval as he looed back at his book, his mind clearly somewhere else. Ed was in for a super fun evening of Jonathan researching now but honestly, he felt Edward brought that on himself by asking. "I think it adds character. Makes you look good. You suit greyish blue."

Jon was smirking to himself. It was fun to tease Ed, to flirt a little. He was never bored with Eddie.

[3rs]

"You, my dear friend, are a sadistic creep. For the record." Edward put the damn bag back over his eye, then simply stretched out on the ground and watched Jonathan through his uninjured eye. "Keep your hands off Harvey, by the way. My toy, my game, I've called dibs."

With that he closed the other eyes as well, deciding that a nap was probably preferable to actively listening to Jonathan on a research spree.